[He's honestly not surprised, this is Moriarty after all]
I believe there is - as I had just realized fully once it did that thing.
[The way certain words were phrased, that seem to slither down a person's spine like a slimy serpent - the words coming too clearly but yet something it seem to have break somewhere between hearing it and the brain registering what it means. The words seem to compel the listener to partake while instinct tells one to flee. It did make Holmes wonder if that is what Pandora felt with the box.
[He watches a petal fall into his drink, floating on the glass.
For a moment, he looks...secretive. Like he knows something that Sherlock doesn't...before he shrugs and takes another drink.]
Indeed - I had all the chance in the world. Those countless phantasmal spirits were only a threat because I allowed them to become one. Of course, it was partly because of my fondness for our Master, but...
[He's silent for a moment.]
If I had fully absorbed you, I feared even I would lose control of who I was.
[He saw that look, here - nothing escapes his eyes. For a moment, he considered badgering the man, to make him spill, but he holds off - knowing Moriarty will not answer unless he wants to. Part of being a detective is knowing when to ask.
At Moriarty's words, he involuntarily shivers - it was something he feared when he was alive, a mortal being who had no natural defenses against something pushing against his soul]
... That has been something I kept pushing down, kept pressing to keep it at bay so it would not do the same to me.
Hmph. That would explain the drug use, then. I'm surprised you managed to live without them, with that inside of you.
[He's mostly still, which is unusual for him - unlike the fire and evil he'd shown the demon - that beast - he only watches his alcohol.]
...I don't understand that fear. But then again, I am a man who turned to Evil merely because I did not want my theories to be consigned to dust without ever having them tested.
...Still, I realized that letting that free would end everything, so I allowed my defeat and let you go.
I suppose it also explains how you were able to recover so quickly, anyway.
[He subconsciously clutched his left arm - even as a Servant, he didn't quite feel that fire of addiction, but there is that urge to crawl back just for the oblivion it gives]
Among other things - keeping myself busy in one form or another kept me from hearing that voice clearly.
I can be a troublesome person, as you will no doubt agree, and sometimes my pursuit of truth blinds me. And I always felt that one can help people with knowledge.
[Which made that voice so heart-wrenching for him. Falling silent for a moment, before speaking up]
Ha! 'Troublesome' doesn't begin to cover what you are, Holmes! ..Still, it is an unfair situation for you - and I can easily see that. For one so devoted to Good, having that kind of voice in your mind would have driven weaker men to madness.
[Wait, was that...praise? He lifts his glass to take a sip-
And then spits it out as he hears that last bit, staring at him incredulously.]
One - I was still stunned that you tried to eat my soul, Two - it would make you mad to realize I know, because again you did that to me. And Three - it's always better to hear it directly from the person responsible.
[He's absolutely correct, but the casual way of how he just states it absolutely infuriates him.
Still, he doesn't lash out juuuust yet. His fingers desperately twitch against the glass, though.]
That's it! When we get back to Chaldea, I will absolutely tell everyone about your sordid little habits! Hell, I have half a mind to tell everyone here about them!
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Thank you by the way, even if it was for selfish reasons.
[Sherlock exhales]
I needed a moment to gather my thoughts.
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[Still, it's said with a smile - for now, he's in a slightly good mood, though it's still not as vibrant as how he normally is.]
Go ahead - I'm just enjoying this sight. It's quite the beautiful one - one you'd never get to see in London.
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It is, especially not the London of our time - I can see why Our Master and the Japanese servants are so obsessed with these flowers.
[Sherlock take a long, slow drink from his bottle, organizing everything - where to even start]
Damn thing needs to be muzzled.
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[He chuckles...and then Sherlock gets into what they were both avoiding for a time.]
That's the least of what it needs. If it keeps causing trouble, I'm liable to take out Reichenbach and shoot it.
[Yes he named his coffin after his place of death, what of it.]
...But there's more than it just being a demon, isn't there?
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[He's honestly not surprised, this is Moriarty after all]
I believe there is - as I had just realized fully once it did that thing.
[The way certain words were phrased, that seem to slither down a person's spine like a slimy serpent - the words coming too clearly but yet something it seem to have break somewhere between hearing it and the brain registering what it means. The words seem to compel the listener to partake while instinct tells one to flee. It did make Holmes wonder if that is what Pandora felt with the box.
He takes an even longer swig]
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...did you ever wonder why I didn't absorb you completely, Holmes?
[Phrased like he has all the faith in the world about Holmes wondering about it, even as he continues.]
Or why I proclaimed myself as the Culprit so easily?
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But you still had a shot...
[There was one thing, one thing besides Moriarty's affection for their Master. Despite being alone, his voice lowers into a whisper]
so you felt that thing.
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[He watches a petal fall into his drink, floating on the glass.
For a moment, he looks...secretive. Like he knows something that Sherlock doesn't...before he shrugs and takes another drink.]
Indeed - I had all the chance in the world. Those countless phantasmal spirits were only a threat because I allowed them to become one. Of course, it was partly because of my fondness for our Master, but...
[He's silent for a moment.]
If I had fully absorbed you, I feared even I would lose control of who I was.
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At Moriarty's words, he involuntarily shivers - it was something he feared when he was alive, a mortal being who had no natural defenses against something pushing against his soul]
... That has been something I kept pushing down, kept pressing to keep it at bay so it would not do the same to me.
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[He's mostly still, which is unusual for him - unlike the fire and evil he'd shown the demon - that beast - he only watches his alcohol.]
...I don't understand that fear. But then again, I am a man who turned to Evil merely because I did not want my theories to be consigned to dust without ever having them tested.
...Still, I realized that letting that free would end everything, so I allowed my defeat and let you go.
I suppose it also explains how you were able to recover so quickly, anyway.
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Among other things - keeping myself busy in one form or another kept me from hearing that voice clearly.
I can be a troublesome person, as you will no doubt agree, and sometimes my pursuit of truth blinds me. And I always felt that one can help people with knowledge.
[Which made that voice so heart-wrenching for him. Falling silent for a moment, before speaking up]
...I was aware the entire time, so you know.
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[Wait, was that...praise? He lifts his glass to take a sip-
And then spits it out as he hears that last bit, staring at him incredulously.]
What?!
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I was stunned when you absorbed me, and that I could still sense everything that went on, though a few details were and remained hazy.
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[He shook his head, sighing]
One - I was still stunned that you tried to eat my soul, Two - it would make you mad to realize I know, because again you did that to me. And Three - it's always better to hear it directly from the person responsible.
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[He's absolutely correct, but the casual way of how he just states it absolutely infuriates him.
Still, he doesn't lash out juuuust yet. His fingers desperately twitch against the glass, though.]
That's it! When we get back to Chaldea, I will absolutely tell everyone about your sordid little habits! Hell, I have half a mind to tell everyone here about them!
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3/3
[He hisses through clenched teeth]
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[AHA, HE HAS HIM AT HIS MERCY. He flashes the most evil grin he has, puffing himself up.]
Wahahahahaha! You'll regret tipping your hand in front of me, Holmes!!
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EVERYONE! LISTEN WELL! WHEN SHERLOCK THINKS NO ONE IS LOOKING, HE-
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[he's of course caught off guard, and easily taken down to the ground.
...And then immediately begins trying to punch Sherlock because honestly, it's a reflex at this point.]